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In case you missed it, I am currently documenting a week in my life along with Ali Edwards and her community. Here are my posts for Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday.
Thursday, June 5th 2025
I felt quite reflective today, so here’s a few of my thoughts and feelings.
Today felt healing in some ways. Edd came home – finally. I feel so relieved. It’s not even about sharing the burden of housework and parenting but not having to be alone with my own thoughts so much. At the moment I easily slip into a weirdly dark spiral. The thing that reliably stops it is being with people and being drawn out of my own head. Sometimes you need to look up to see the horizon.
In the afternoon I read a few poems (I probably should have tidied up or done something more productive) but it was exactly what I needed. Amy Bornman is my alltime favourite writer and poet. I have been following her for a number of years on social media and read all her published essays and poems, which makes me feel like I know her. Which of course, I don’t. I wish I did though. She manages and dares to express so many of my own thoughts and feelings that are buried so deep within me that I often struggle to understand them myself. I feel so seen by her, and even more – somehow absolved, the fact that she seems to feel and think and live similar experiences is somehow akin to being declared “okay”. I am okay, good even. There is nothing strange or even unusual about this deep yearning inside me to break out of this domesticated existence which coexists with the desire to stay here for as long as I can. I love my life. I love my kids! So much more than I ever thought possible. It’s also exhausting though.
Morning
It was a good day! I took L to the local family centre where I always meet lots of wonderful Mamas and today I met up with a good friend there and it felt so good to connect.
Then, L and I picked up Edd from the airport!
The plane was quite delayed so from there we went and picked up SJ who was beyond excited to see her daddy again.
Afternoon
At home we played lots, I had some coffee on my own, it was lovely. SJ and I made chocolate chip cookies, my favourite. We’ve been using this recipe but substitute whole meal spelt flour for the all purpose one.
Edd had to do a bit of work and SJ went to hang out with her cousin. L played, I tidied and read.
Evening
Once everyone was back, I cooked dinner while Edd bathed the girls. It all felt so relaxing! We had a lovely dinner together, played for a while and then I put the girls to bed while Edd did some work.
In the evening Edd and I had some beers and just caught up with each other. I’m so happy he is home!
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