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Two steps forward, one (two, three?) steps back

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As I am writing this it is Monday night and Edd and I just spent over one and a half hours putting our child to bed.

Sleep has been this one big thing that has made parenthood really hard for us. Normally, SJ falls asleep within 10-30 minutes in the evening. However, every now and then there is an evening where she just cannot settle down.

And then there is still all the times she wakes each night. We have good nights but there are still so so many bad ones, where she keeps me up for several hours in the night.

The worst thing for me is when I think “oh she is finally falling asleep!” And then she sits up again and screams. Ugh. Oh boy. When will this get better?

Better, but not good

Our rule is that she has to fall asleep in her own bed in the evenings but when she wakes at night she can come into our bed. I was opposed to this idea for a while. But there came a point where sitting next to her bed for hours each night just became way too exhausting. 

She sleeps better with this arrangement then she has before but normally insists on lying on me in some way and each morning I wake with an aching back, neck and shoulders. 

There is no real point to my complaining. I share a lot of the highlights on here but obviously there are hard days too. Like today! I had a super busy day at work today. All I wanted was a break afterwards. However, all my sweet SJ wants when I am home is my constant attention. So it was cuddles and cooking and eating and bathing and then the big bed time struggle. 

Obviously all this things are ultimately good things. I have a job! My child wants to be near me. I am not doing this on my own.

Now I am about to jump on a zoom call for an online book club and have a beer! So, there are still some highlights to be found. 

This is Day 14 of my 100 Day Project. You can learn more about my 100 day project by reading this postIf you want to do your own 100 day Project, I would recommend checking out the 100 Day Project website.

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