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Something is not quite right. My chest feels like there is so much in there, like it might explode. Sometimes I feel like this. I know something is up, but I don’t have the ability to express it.
I think it has to do with that though – with expressing. I want to express myself more. And I think I deny myself that. I feel that this need to tell my story, to comment, to always give my piece of mind – like that is a symptom of unhealthy hubris. (Come on, I mean who uses words like hubris?) Sometimes I feel like this generation – us millennials, we feel this wrong sense of entitlement. We are infected with youthful arrogance, we think we have it figured out, we take ourselves to serious, think we’re too important. And in my desire to not be like that I make myself small. I hunker down, I ignore my desires, my feelings, the artsy things inside me that cry out: “Make me! Let me out!”
I think I have been like that for a while. I have learned that feelings are not reality. So I tend to ignore them. Feelings are like clouds – only because they are there, it does not mean that there is anything wrong with the sun. And so I don’t examine my feelings and think, ‘oh my heart is trying to say something’. I just think, ‘oh hey there clouds/feelings – hopefully you will leave soon’. And I just wait for them to pass. I don’t do anything about it. I don’t analyse the clouds. Which means that sometimes I get caught in the rain. I am getting to metaphorical now, aren’t I?
Well, but I also think – if someone else was me and I would listen to all this, I would say: Your voice is valuable. Your point of view, your experience, your life is unique. There is nothing wrong with wanting to express yourself. It is okay to do that.
And I have heard that saying things out loud is beneficial – so right now I say: Britta, it is okay. You are allowed to express yourself.
Sing the song. Write the story. Film the video. Take the picture.
Be loud. Be obnoxious. Be different. (Or be like all the other people just in your own unique way).
You are allowed!
As I am writing this, I think that maybe even if I do suffer from hubris it is even more important to put my thoughts out there so that I can get a response. Start a conversation which will hopefully help me to critically reflect on those same old patterns of thought.
I think this might not make any sense. But I am posting it anyway. And who knows maybe some of you out there who read this need to hear this as well. YOU ARE ALLOWED TO EXPRESS YOURSELF. So go do the thing you meant to be doing.
I love this, expressing yourself is so important! For a long time I tried to keep it all in, but since started my blog I have been able to find my voice again and expressing myself is hugely therapeutic!
That is so true – feels so good to get things out 🙂
Today ..with social media and all of the technology we have at our fingertips .. it’s really easy for everyone to be creative and show it off to the world. I think of (for example) photography. It wasn’t that long ago that if you wanted to take pictures .. equipment was really expensive and they all have to be developed in a dark room. Or blogging .. the internet really isn’t that old. Now .. anyone who wants to write and share their thoughts can pretty quickly have a platform
Yeah you are right! But there is also way more possibilities for comparison… But it is true, we have so many opportunities we should make use of!
Yes thats what i say and try to follow.
I can’t sing a song 🙁 but I can I guess Write.. and definitely I can take pictures and let my camera speak 🙂
Yes make what you can and are passionate about!
I tried suppressing my self expression to make someone happy before… worst idea ever. I was absolutely miserable. The best thing anyone can do is be themselves and express themselves however possible. Some things shouldn’t be so tightly bottled up.
Yeah I guess it is really unhealthy to keep it all in. Something I am constantly learning! But it is a journey, ey?
I am all about expressing myself!! I have been since I was a little girl. It really helps me emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Sometimes I do it either in a creative way such as writing a song, or a poem, or in my journal. SO so important to let things out so it doesn’t consume you.
That is beautiful. How wonderful you were able to be creative since such a long time 🙂
That is the beauty of blogging. When I started blogging I suddenly had a platform which I could be free to express myself and to my surprise gained a readership pretty quickly!